Thursday, December 17, 2009

I am a mess and emotional mess...

I get so weepy. I get that familiar burn in my nose and eyes and throat. You know the one when something touches you and you are starting to tear up and if you give in then a FLOOD of tears and boohoo's follow.

I have been this way as long as I can remember. I am a very emotional person. I cry at movies (the reason I won't see Precious in theaters, I cry on the commercials!). I cry at the touching Christmas commercials, even. Yes I am that person. I cry to music more than I want to remember. At least once a day I will get choked up if I am listening to music. Country music is bad because it can be so sad. I listen to KLOVE an inspirational Christian channel most of the time. One reason is that I know nothing will be said or done that I don't want K hearing. Another reason is I enjoy the music. Some of the stories and songs touch me and make me cry. Case and point, this morning, I was coming home from dropping K off at school. The Transcyberian Orchestra (spelling ?) came on. I adore them and love orchestra music in general, but add that with Christmas music.. MAGIC... I cried a little... touching.

I'm not depressed. I am just an emotional person. If I'm mad I cry. The madder I get the more I'm prone to cry.

I don't know why I am like this. I would LOVE to get my tear ducts removed or take a pill so I can be more like everyone else. I can't even tell you how many times I've teared up at church and all my friends sitting me are dry eyed. How can they not get teary eyed, I wonder WAY TOO MUCH!

Maybe they are good a holding in their emotions, unlike me.

I am just an emotional mess.


  1. Hey it happens! I used to start crying at the beginning of Benji. It was a show about a dog who always helped people and risked his life to do so. My mother also had to take me out of the movie theater when she took me to see The Bear. His mother died at the beginning and I couldn't stop crying. Then I got older and it hasn't been that bad but I still do get choked up with songs and movies. Just remember...its good to be emotional. Your human!

  2. Leave your tear ducts alone!
    I'm an emotional person too. I hate that I cry when I'm mad because it makes me feel weak but other than that, I don't mind it.

  3. When I read this, I thought "that's so me!". I am also a very emotional person. Extreme Home Makeover gets me every time...I'm a mess watching that show!

  4. It's great to know I'm not alone. Thanks girls! Lindsey I know Benji well!!