confession

I must confess, we were so busy getting ready for trick-or-treating, I forgot to make/have dinner. It did not even dawn on me until after we got home and were going through K's candy. You know you always have to check it for unwrapped and razor blades and such lol.. and to get dibs on the reese's peanut butter cups. I was thinking "why am I so hungry" and it dawned on my we didn't have dinner!!.. K didn't even realize either until I said it. So I made a can of chicken noodle soup and we had pretzels with it for dinner. That sounds AWFUL... I took chicken out and was planning on making tomato basil chicken... oooops.. FYI I am starving right now... uggg I am going to bed soon, so I guess we will have a big breakfast in the morning before church.

Confession #2:
Dh has been out of town all week for work. I haven't vacuumed, dusted, or mopped ALL WEEK.. and now I notice I am getting stressed over it. Not that it looks like it needs done, I just know it hasn't so it bothers me! I did clean bathrooms, do laundry and dishes/kitchen ect. Since tonight is the night we set our clocks back, so that means it's "spring cleaning". I guess it's fall cleaning technically. SO starting Monday I have to get back on track. I am writing it here so I have to hold myself accountable RIGHT?!?! Getting back on track includes going to the gym too, it's been 2 weeks! In my defense I did have a dog die unexpectedly, a sick kid, and I've been sick. I still feel like I've gotten lazy.

Confession #3:
I have spent way too much money lately. I need to make a budget and stick to it. I'm not good at sticking to a budget. I blogged the other day about getting the movie to the book I just read. I didn't, I figured I didn't need to spend the money on that today. I still haven't decided what I'm doing about that job, if I do take it then I won't need to worry about a budget. But I also won't be here to get anything done or help K with homework...

I hope everyone had a great Halloween evening!

~Angela

the things we do for our kids

Yes this IS me.. I was wonder woman for Halloween.. K was super girl and our dog was Kripto. We were themed! I'm not so good at photo shop so a heart is the best I could do over K's face LOL...

That brings me to another point. Many people are fine with posting pics of their kids, that is great. The kids are beautiful and that's your thing. I am glad you do that.

However, I choose not to post pictures of my daughter it's just my preference. I don't mind posting pics of me though.

Ok enough about that!
So back to my original reason for this blog. Yes we themed. K wanted super girl and found a wonder woman for me so I gave in.. I thought it would be fun.. I spent almost 20 min on my hair, I used my bump-it to get that 60's look, I curled and hair sprayed and curled some more WHEW.. then the headband made me sweat and was itchy, I ended up taking off my boot covers and cape (the dog got my cape). My "bullet proof bracelets" were itchy, and the darn thing was too big for me.. I was pulling it up all night (ok for the hour I was in it)... I could NOT wait to take a shower and wash the sweat off of me and was all that gunk out of my hair.

All in all it was a good night. K had a blast, after we made our rounds she was the candy "hander outer". She really enjoyed doing that! She didn't get an awful lot of candy. That is fine with me, her bag was 3/4 of the way full. We still have a bunch left over from what I bought (we are one of 4 houses on our part of the road. I figured we wouldn't get many trick-or-treaters but I'd rather be safe than sorry. There was one year we started giving out the candy K got because we ran out.

It's 9:35 and I just got K into bed about 10 minutes ago and I am exhausted. I still have more horror movies to watch so I think that is what I am going to do.
Tomorrow starts the true Holiday Season.

OH don't forget to set your clocks back if you are in the U.S.

~Angela

Enough about that.

This is how Super girl gets her powers. She's already all dressed up, we have 4 hours until trick-or-treat time.

Happy Halloween!!

Costume pics coming soon................

yumm- middle of the night ramblings

Can I just say YUMMM!!!!

I know the Twilight series was made for teenagers blah blah blah... But I am well NOT a teenager and I have read all the books and LOVE them. Some may think I have an unhealthy obsession with Vampires.. I say NO not vampires just Edward Cullen.. Is he NOT just the PERFECT guy... *SIGH* I am so glad that in about 3 weeks New Moon comes out. I will be going to see it ALONE since DH won't go with me. lol If he ONLY knew what Edward Cullen can do to a girl then I think he'd want to go, probably 10 or more times!!!!! lol

I know the man behind Edward is Robert Pattinson, HOTTIE... Especially with his British accent... but I DO LOVE his voice as Edward..*sigh*. I can honestly say I like him with brown/golden eyes better then the blue he has naturally, SORRY ROBERT lol...

Ok these are the ramblings of the sleep deprived.. I took a nap this afternoon because I had a killer headache that wouldn't go away. NOW 3 movies later and some excedrine later it's gone and I am WIDE awake.

Free Taco's Saturday night..

Taco Bell is giving out FREE black taco's from 6pm til midnight.. That's great if you are out Trick or Treating or fall festivaling and want to grab a quick bite!! We all know kids are too excited to eat dinner anyway they just want to get out and get CANDY!!!

Weekend Wishes

It's finally Friday. The holiday season is here YAY!!!!!

Can I just say that I am so glad I TIVO'd Regis and Kelly today?!?!

This is the FUNNIEST Halloween show I've seen.. this is great!!!

So I was feeling better yesterday the first day all week. And typical mom I did way too much and today feel like I've been hit by a truck. I was hungry though so I ate some leftover Mac and cheese, uggg now I feel like barfing! *sigh*

I think we are going to make it a quite night tonight and rest and then tomorrow head out for the festivities, and I need to go to LifeWay still and get that movie :)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

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North vs. South observation

I have lived the majority of my life in the south. Most of it in Florida where I grew up, and about 12 years in Louisiana, the "dirty south". If you have never been to the southern states, Texas, Louisiana, Mississippi, Alabama, Georgia, Florida, even S. Carolina, Tennessee, Arkansas, Oklahoma count as the south in MY book. Then you may not understand where I am coming from with this.

Now I live in Virginia, although some still consider it the south, honey, it's a FAR cry from the south and I KNOW!!

Not only do people stare at me when I say y'all or talk for that matter.. yes the word five is pronounced fav... and time is pronounced tam (short a's) and 2 syllables, why is pronounce wha..and I even has 2 syllables.. this is just how it is.

Now that I am in Virginia, I am so thankful that I can go to out in public without my hair fixed and no makeup, flip flops, yoga pants and a t-shirt, and I do not look out of place. If you are from the south you know what I mean. Especially Texas, my goodness, I have a friend from Texas who slept with a full face of makeup because she didn't want her husband to see her without it. Honey, with me, you get what you get and you don't throw a fit. Maybe I fit in better here. I don't like to do my hair everyday or wear makeup or wear my Nine West Boots or heels every time I leave the house.

I am not trying to sound demeaning against northern women AT all. I am just saying that I have observed that up here women do not feel the need to flat iron or curl their hair everyday. They don't feel the need to wear a face full of make up to drop their kid off at school. In the south I think we do that because that's how it has always been done, and Lord knows you don't want someone seein' ya lookin' a hot mess. Lord have mercy, you will be the talk of the town.

Don't get me started on how our kids look either. If you go to church or to dinner or even out shopping on a Saturday, their hair is perfect and up in bows and a pretty (very expensive) designer dress on. That is for another time. Yes I am guilty of that as well, eventually our little princess grows up and refuses to wear dresses OR bows if they are the tomboy mine is.

I have heard the saying "the women look better in the south" or "the women are prettier in the south".. Honey, let me break this to you softly. Yes they may look pretty and natural but it takes A LOT to look that way. At a bare minimum, foundation, eye liner, mascara, eye shadow, lip gloss ALWAYS, (you always have to have lip gloss!). The hair is blown out or curled and styled. Even if it's a pony tail is work, you have to style the front, can't just pull it back. Southern women the ones I know, and me included take at least 30-45 minutes start to finish (getting dressed included) to look natural!

I am not knocking the south either I LOVE THE SOUTH and I always will.. it's just who I am! I am just saying how nice it is to go to the store with my hair in a pony tail, pulled straight back, eye liner ONLY and maybe some lip gloss and a t-shirt and yoga pants!!!!

~Angela

Blogger Santa Swap

This sounds fun. Shannon over at http://www.themommy-files.com posted this. She is heading it up, IE pairing people with each other. If you would like more information or would like to join us head on over to her site and read the details.

Thanks Shannon this sounds fun.. Time to start thinking!!! :)

~Angela

Halloween Plans

WOW is this really my 3rd post today. I must have a lot on my mind today!
SO I had this GREAT idea! I am reading this book HOUSE by Ted Dekker and Frank Peretti. It is pretty scary. I did some research on it and there is a movie that came out last November. I am super excited.

Now for my Halloween plans. During the day I am going to take K to the library and maybe a few other places locally while she wears her costume. That evening we are unsure if we are going to stay in and dress up and handout candy, or dress up and go trick-or-treating. Either way we are dressing up. After all that fun is done, and we are back home. Candy sorted, showers taken and K is in bed. I want to watch the movie that goes with the book. My goal is to be finished reading it by Saturday! Otherwise I won't watch the movie. The book is ALWAYS better than the movie but either way. I love watching scary movies on Halloween so this is going to be my choice this year!

NOW the problem is finding the movie. I bought the book at LifeWay, so I am going to go there tomorrow or Friday and look for the movie. If they don't have it I'll try a movie rental place. I have already looked on the Direct TV, both ON DEMAND and regular way you look stuff up. It's not there.

Here's to a wonderful Halloween to everyone. Then starting Sunday we can start looking forward to my FAVORITE holiday, Thanksgiving! My favorite used to be Christmas but now it's too commercialized, I still love it, but I hope this year to be able to bring Jesus into it more!

~Angela

Wish List Wednesday

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If you want to play head over to her site to get the button. :)


If you could meet anyone who would it be?

Jesus (before I die)
me when I am OLDER to ask myself a few questions.

but if THAT doesn't count since it's me and I've already met me.

I'd say an ancestor. I've always been interested in my family tree and history. Since my dad's mom was adopted we can't go back very far. On my mom's side we've went back to her dad's parents. Then I got to a road block. *sigh*

~Angela

Confused

This morning started out normal. Drag myself out of bed, get K up, take the dog out and feed her. Get K's breakfast ready (pancakes and turkey bacon today) while she is getting dressed. Make her lunch, fix her hair, send her to the bus stop ( today I drove her since it is raining).
I come back home, have a cup of mint tea, since I didn't feel like brewing coffee. I'm still not feeling well or have much energy, so I decided it's a good idea to skip the gym. I don't want spread anything if I am contagious, and I just don't have the energy. I opt to lay in bed, borrowing K's new snuggie and read the book I just started last night. By the way it's not a great idea to start a scary book when DH isn't home! I decided to read the scary book I bought a couple months back since Halloween is coming and all. It's "The House" by Tedd Dekker...
Anyway, I dose off and my phone rings, I answer it, I'm still half asleep and think they are asking for DH, I tell them he isn't here. He said No Mrs. DH.... OH sorry yes this is her.
Here is my confusion. I applied for a job before we moved here (it's been about 3 months). It's a job here, military blah blah like I was doing before, just a little different. I completely forgot about it. Anyway he basically tells me the job is mine if I want it. He just needs a form and to have it endorsed by my old unit. I tell him great he gives me all his contact info and the details of what he needs and tells me I need my annual flu shot and my bi-annual HIV screening (all required military mumbo jumbo) and get that form back to him and then it's my job. I suspect he sensed apprehension in my voice because he said, with the holidays coming up it will be a month or so before anything is final, so I don't have to worry about having to report next week or anything. We hang up..

NOW a ton of questions are going through my mind, about the job, if I want to work, will I have to go through the tunnel everyday (that would be a deal breaker). I texted DH who I'm sure will be happy for me. I just don't know if I want this job. Since today is Wednesday I am going to take a day to think about it. Pray and Sleep on it, and I am sure I'll have my decision tomorrow.

Also why do we think of a ton of questions when we get off the phone with people, not while we are talking to them?! I was caught off guard by that phone call today. I just need to step back and re-group. I do love being at home, getting everything done and not being overly exhausted at the end of the day. I love being here when K get's home from school and to get her to school. I love that we can have her homework done by the time DH gets home. I also would like to have my own income to feel I am helping out monetarily around here. I have always had a job or gone to school. I have always been able to contribute financially. I am so torn.

Well, I am off to pray about this and read more of my scary book and try to keep my mind from thinking too much, it hurts. lol...

~Angela

Insomnia

Last night I couldn't sleep. I just wasn't tired, so I went to bed around 11 pm. I watched TV in bed until 2 am. REALLY? 2 am. It has been a LONG time since I've done that. Maybe it was the captivating entertainment on TV. I was watching HGTV (one of my FAVORITE channels) also flipping to E!, because THAT is quality TV on that channel. HA! Somehow I'm sure it wasn't the captivating television. I seem to remember that my grandma would stay up late (late for me, I was a kid, I'm sure she was asleep by 10 or 11 every night) and she was up really early. There was a brief time that my grandpa lived with us when I was a kid. He would stay up late watching the Weather channel and he was still up around 7 am daily. Does that mean I'm old? I am in my EARLY EARLY 30's so I'd like to think that isn't true.


I also find it odd that I'm not tired this morning. Yes, when my alarm went off this morning I didn't want to get up, but I jumped right out of bed. This is probably because DH is on a business trip and I knew he wouldn't be there to drag me out of bed to get K up. Maybe it's that I am not used to sleeping alone and that's why I couldn't sleep. I told myself I would go back to bed after K got on the bus. WELL I am not tired! That's probably my fault because I naturally got up and made coffee this morning.

Since I didn't vacuum, dust or do bathrooms yesterday, I really need to do them today. I also have to go to K.'s school where I volunteer in the library a couple days a week. The beauty of it is I don't have to do the house cleaning this morning. In fact I can employ K this afternoon, she loves to dust! I'm sure it will start bothering me, not because my house is dirty, but because I am OCD (I use the term lightly) about it and it didn't get done yesterday. I chose to play games and watch a movie with K yesterday since she was home sick. In the end no one was ever on their death bed worrying about vacuuming floors.

I am hoping I'll be able to catch some z's before I need to get ready to go to K's school. I REALLY hope I get sleep tonight. Tomorrow I'll be at the gym at 8am for Zumba, then step/sculpt, and YOGA. I skipped the gym all last week, I need to get back in before I get lazy!

~Angela

my observations of being a working mom vs Stay-at-home-mom

The window clings K and I put up today. She designed them :)

I recently quit my job. I had a great paying flexible job. Meaning I could take time off if I needed too or leave early/come in late if I needed too. It was nice to have the adult interaction and feel like I was doing something important.

We have recently moved, DH is in the Air Force, it goes with the territory.

At the moment I am not working. I may try to find a job in the future, but right now I am perfectly happy staying home. It has it's good points and bad. My observations are:

WORKING: what I miss
~the adult interaction of having a job
~ making my own money and being able to spend it how I want
~feeling like what I do daily matters to others
~ random funny things that would happen on a regular basis
~ the randomness of my day when I worked
What I don't miss:
~ waking up early and having to get ready
~trying to figure out what I am going to wear and then it not look right and have to find something else
~feeling guilty if I had to take a sick day because K was sick
~feeling guilty that I was working and not there for K when she got home from school and be able to help her with homework or have snack with her
~not having time to cook a decent dinner
~spending most of my Saturday cleaning and doing laundry because I didn't have time to do it during the week.
~being too tired or not have enough time to play games with K when she wants.

those are just a few off the top of my head.

I think even though I feel pressure to have a spotless house, workout and have a good body (I'm still working on that one!) and be "super mom". I wouldn't trade it in right now. There are some days when I don't want to do anything but I feel guilty if I don't do it. Technically it is my job now.

Right now I am going to put vacuuming and toilet scrubbing on hold to play a game with K. since she is home sick today. I love that I can do that and NOT feel guilty that I am taking a sick day especially since she isn't sick today, but she hasn't been fever free for 24 hours yet so she can't return to school. I would have felt like we were both "skipping". I can deal with not having my own money it has brought us all together more as a family. We discuss purchases now. We have more family time since all of my housework and laundry are done during the day. K helps me make a healthy delicious dinner every night and we have time to bake and do things together.

Those are just my observations.

blah weekend

Today is Monday. I wish I could say we had a fantastic weekend. If your idea of fantastic is sitting at urgent care with a ton of sick people for all afternoon Saturday. Then I suppose we did.

While we were at Urgent care, this lady and her 3 sons were sitting in front of us. Only one of them were sick, I know this because the sick people had to wear masks over their nose and mouth. Everyone is afraid of H1N1. Not only was the youngest one (not the sick one) bouncing all over the place which drove me nuts!! BUT they were ALL drinking sugary sodas. Really? I'm not judging, ok yes I am a bit. But if you know you are going somewhere that you know your kids are going to have to be sitting for a while, then sugary soda is NOT a good idea. Especially if one is sick.. There aren't many immune boosting properties in that stuff. If they were drinking Orange or Apple Juice that would have been different. I know liquids are important when you are sick.. We let K bring a drink. It was the LARGE refillable water bottle she has had by her side all weekend!! And yes it had water in it...

I am happy to report her fever broke this morning. She isn't at school today though. They don't want them to go back until they are 24 hrs free of fever! So tomorrow back to school. I am so glad she is feeling better BUT wow am I going to have a hyper child on my hands all day. She spent all weekend, laying around and just plain not feeling well. WAY different story today! I am not going to lie, I did sort of enjoy laying in bed with her for most of the day yesterday watching movies :)

I remember when I was a kid and I was sick. My mom would get me a little gift at the store when she either went to get my school work or my prescription or something. I suppose that has carried on to me, because while I was at Walgreen's getting K's prescription and meds, I walked past the snuggie for kids. I have been so against these forever, I thought why not just wear your robe backwards?! She has been asking for one for a while though, even though she has an adult robe that was intended to be worn as a snuggie. WELL, yes I did, I bought her the snuggie for kids. It also came with "cozy socks" and it was pink! She LOVES it, she wore it all day yesterday and even slept in it. She told me a few times that she loves the "cozy socks" they are so cozy she says. I was just glad I made my little girl feel better, in spite of her feeling so bad.

it really woks

Let me start my saying this is not a product review. The company didn't ask me to review this (I don't even know who the company is) and I had to pay for it.. $2.50 at Target in the "dollar bin".

Has anyone seen these? It's a terry cloth headwrap. I bought it because it was cheap but I didn't think it would really work. I LOVE IT.. it does look REALLY dorky, but I don't go out in public with it on. I can put it on after I towel dry my hair and it stays in place until I'm ready to take it off (there is a button that goes through and elastic band in the back!)

The other options are letting my wet hair drip EVERYWHERE and annoy me and everyone else, blow dry it immediately, which isn't healthy for your hair to do daily. OR wrap it in a towel (the way I did before I got this). The towel ends up falling to the side and/or falling off. I always had to get dressed before I put it on, since no shirt would fit over that HUGE towel on my head. SO I would end up getting my shirt wet and I never got a good "wrap" the 2nd time. I only got a good wrap if I did it right out of the shower.

So I may look like a goober but it works! I know the picture looks stupid but I wanted to include an image and I couldn't find a good one online.

TGIF

There are many reasons I love Friday's.
~No homework
~I don't have to cook on Friday's, it's usually Pizza or we go out
~I can sleep in the next morning (if I remember to shut the alarm off)
~last day of the week for my spin/step/and yoga classes. ( even though I haven't been this week, dealing with Hannah passing and not feeling well I opted to stay home!)
~We usually spend most of the night catching up on all the TV shows we DVR'd during the week.

That are just a few of the things that came to me. However Saturday's are even better because I can sleep in and we usually do some family activity together and maybe watch a movie.

Sunday's are hands down the BEST day of the week. Sunday is the day we sleep in, got to church, come home and I watch to football games I want to see, I don't need to watch them all like DH. It is also "classic Movie Sunday", I find an old movie on AMC, TMC or the fox classic movie channel some Sundays they play better movies than other. Some actually are so good and memorable they come to mind often. Others not so much. I do not do any housework on Sunday MAYBE I'll wash sheets but that's it! We also generally have a good "country farm dinner". We do not live on a farm, nor have we ever. But the meals we have on Sunday are meals I imagine one would have on a farm, the meat, fresh veggies, fresh rolls or bread ect. Sometimes we make out own pizza (fresh dough and all) but Sunday's are a day for down home food... and Finally, the best TV shows are ALL on Sunday night! SO many we DVR and have to watch later in the week.

Fridays are great, Saturday are awesome family time, but Sunday is just the BEST day of the week.. I don't know why I got off on a tangent this blog was supposed to be about how great Friday's are....... *sigh*

Memories

This is my Hannah Aug 1999-Oct 19, 2009.. I miss her so much!

It is getting easier to do daily activities minus my beloved Hannah. I really do miss her. I got her when I was going through a very tough time in my life (I was only 21 but 21 year olds can have drama) mine involved an ex-husband (current husband at the time) that was bi-polar. I am in a much better place in my life now, thank the LORD. But my Hannah was there for me through ALL of the tough moments in my life and the good moments in my life. She was there when DH and I got together, when K was born and so much more!

a funny story about Hannah. When I was 7 months pregnant with K. I drove to Florida for vacation (where my whole family lives). My mom threw me a babyshower. Of course I got a ton of stuff. Well, we were on our way back home (driving) Hannah was sitting on whatever lap I had left, and she pee'd! YES She Pee'd on me.. SO we pull over at a rest area, so I could clean up and change. I can ONLY imagine the thoughts of some people. Probably, that pregnant lady pee'd on herself or OH NO HER WATER BROKE.. either way. I wouldn't trade that moment for anything!

Retail Therapy

Retail Therapy isn't good on the pocket but does great for your spirit and mind.

I have been in a funk this week. On Tuesday I told K. we'd go pick her out a Halloween costume on Wednesday. I usually make her costume every year, simply because she always wants to be some sort of animal like a skunk that isn't offered at the store in her size. Those things are usually only infant sizes.

BTW she chose Super girl and low and behold she found a wonder woman one in my size. SO YES we are going themed this year. It has been a while since I've dressed up. She told my I should be a french maid, I disagreed! But then she found Wonder Woman...

Back to my retail therapy! First I went to Rachael Ray's website and got a couple cookie sheets, lazy spoon and ladle and a scoop. These things I needed so I didn't feel bad about them. I'm excited about the spoons. Have you seen them? They have notches in them so you can rest them on your pan when you cook and it hangs over the pan and not resting in the spoon thing on the counter. That as you know all the spoons rest in and foods get mixed.. Such a smart invention!!!

Then K and I went to Target after she finished her homework. I bought stuff we needed, like her costume, new shoes for her, new slippers for us, Halloween goodies to hand out. But I also bought stuff I didn't need, and I feel bad about that! The damage is done however.

I will be going back to Target today after I leave K's school (where I volunteer in the library 2 days a week). The sign said the costumes were 15% off and I didn't get that. I wasn't going to argue in there because....are you ready for this.... I was in the 10 items or less lane... I DID NOT EVEN REALIZE until, all of my stuff was on the belt. I felt so bad, there were like 3 people behind me too. I DID exactly the thing I HATE.. a total pet peeve of mine.. I appologized like crazy to the people behind me and the checker... I even asked her if she wanted me to move to another checkout isle... she said no of course but I still felt awful none-the-less.

So I have learned that retail therapy isn't good for me. I end up not paying attention and end up in the express lane... the reason I didn't notice what lane I was in, is because they had starbucks syrup at the checkout, you know where they put stuff they want you to buy because you are standing in line. However, I in fact love the stuff.. I picked up the sugar free vanilla (for my vanilla latte's) and peppermint for our hot cocoa!

Needless to say I am finished spending money for a while! I hope :)

why do they call it customer service?

Why do they call it Customer Service? It's not Customer Service it's Company Service.

I called AT&T today to cancel my internet card account. I no longer need it since I have high speed and the service for AT&T stinks here so it was slow anyway! I went online before and paid my bill PLUS the cancellation fee of the laptop card.

I call the customer service at AT&T and they transfer me to the "cancellation department".. that in and of itself should let the person answering the phone know "hey this person is going to cancel something!" but of course they nicely told me "they will be happy to help me with that today". He goes on to ask WHY I want to cancel. I gave him the same reason as above.. He told me there will be a cancellation fee, I told him I already paid it. He then told me I could get a $20 discount on my bill the next 3 months and then I can cancel for free. I called to cancel I am going to cancel, so I tell him politely I still want to cancel. I am on hold for a while, not sure if he is giving me time to think or if it really is taking him that long to cancel my stuff. It's not customer service if you ignore what the customer wants!

I then had to call UPS. This is the 3rd month at least we got packages delivered from this company for the previous owners of this house. Each month I call UPS to have them come pick them back up. I feel bad for the driver, really I do. When I was active duty I for a time delivered parts and sometimes had to pick up stuff the customer didn't thinks was serviceable or was delivered wrong. It's a pain. However, it isn't UPS's fault and once I was able to talk to someone they were very nice and have been the past few months. The problem here is getting to speak to someone. When you call UPS they give you 4 options, none of which involve speaking to a real person, or the option I need. So I hang out and listen again, finally after the 2nd automated "I'm sorry I still didn't hear you" they give the option to push buttons and say "agent" or press "0". I press 0 they tell me, the same 4 options AGAIN and after the 2nd round of this I say "agent" FINALLY they connect me. REALLY? why can't I say agent or press "0" to begin with?!?!?! Oh BTW I called the company of the packages that keep getting delivered. They are going to stop delivery. I figured I'd give the other people time to change their address, they apparently don't care about this stuff.. therefore, I had to do something.

REALLY I wish customer service would help the customer and I wish we had the option of speaking to a real person all the time! And it's easier if that person is from my country sometimes my reception is spotty and accents are hard to understand. We are so worried about unemployment in America, these penny pinching out-sourcing companies need to buck up and pay Americans to do the job. Although I'm pretty sure it's easier to not get upset with someone who is being an idiot over the phone if you are on the other side of the world!

In a funk

This week has been a pretty upsetting week.. Monday my beloved dog of 10 years passed away at the vet, in my arms. She was sick, we knew it was coming. I can say all the "what if's", what if I didn't take her to the vet, she may still be with us. BUT, then she would be suffering still and if she had passed away here at the house, what would I do with her body, I can't bury them in my yard. What if they didn't take blood, this one is upsetting, because they took it to find out what is wrong. BUT I think they knew it would be bad for her. They tested her and she in anemic, her body temp was 93 WAY low, she was 101 when we went 4 days before and the vet said it was normal. After they drew blood the Vet came in to see how she was doing, a minute or so later, she passed! What if we went to a better vet in Louisiana? They were obviously a crappy vet because they didn't find ANYTHING or TEST for anything. This vet found Hannah was anemic, had hypothyroid disease, A UTI and kidney stones and a bladder stone! WTW how did the other vet not find that stuff!! I feel almost as if it's my fault since I didn't take her to a better vet. Hannah was missing the hair on her tail for a LONG time now, and her skin was black in most parts. This vet immediately knew it was probably thyroid and tested for it.. HOW DID THE OTHER VET NOT KNOW TO TEST FOR THAT?! I think the anemia would be found then too.

Needless to say, I am in sort of a funk. I haven't left the house since I got home Monday. I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything. There are things I need to do and I told my little girl I'd take her to Target today to get a Halloween costume and pick out a dress and new shoes for her concert at school. I suppose I'll have to do that still. I didn't go to the gym today and I love going to my classes. I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

I'm sure this all will pass. In fact when I got up and it was time to let my other dog Zoey out and feed her it was easier. Yesterday I broke out in a full blown boohoo.

I think I am just going to lay around today and get cleaned up to take K. to the store this afternoon and GO ON with my life starting tomorrow! I hope :) Don't get me wrong, I'm functioning. The house is clean, laundry is done, meals are cooked. K. has went to school all week with a healthy packed lunch, and a sandwich with a picture cut into it. Yesterday was a heart and today a witch hat, I'm back to my Halloween theme. Life goes on!

I wish Hot Chocolate could fix everything

Yesterday when I had to break the news of our Beloved Hannah to my 9 year old daughter. I thought ahead and made a couple cups of hot cocoa with those tiny marshmallows in it. I knew it would comfort her to have the warm cup of good stuff, and a talk about how important Hannah was to us, and how we loved her so. It helped, by the time homework was done, she was ok. She didn't shed more tears until bed time. We let her crawl in bed with us and watch tv for about 30 min. then sent her back to bed. That seemed to work.

Today she comes home from school and I can tell something is wrong. I eventually pry it out of her that her and her little friend a few houses down had a fight. I know they are only 8 and 9 so probably by tomorrow they will be friends again. However, I made her another cup of hot cocoa and she is now doing homework and seems to be ok. Except for when I told her that maybe this weekend or next she can ask her friend to sleep over. She said "if we aren't friends why would I want her to sleep over". I told her they would make up, to which she asked if her younger sister could come too. AHHH if all our kids problems could be solved by a few words and a cup of hot cocoa with marshmallows! I know as she gets older, she won't want to open up to me as much and her problems will become bigger. Lord, please help us when she starts seeing boys differently! I imagine her first break up will also call for some hot cocoa with marshmallows and a good talk.

If she is anything like her mother, she will have to learn things the HARD way. I was never good at taking advise. I had to do what I was advised NOT to do and reap the consequences. As I got older I realized that my mom and dad really did know what they were talking about.

Right now I am going to cherish the moments I have with my precious 9 year old because I know when she becomes a teenager she won't want to "hang out" with me as much, it just won't be cool. I pray that she will always feel comfortable enough to come to me with anything, that she will ask me if she has questions about mature topics and not her friends. I pray to always be close with my baby girl. However, I do realize that she doesn't need another friend she needs a mom. There is a fine line there and I don't want to cross or break it.

A pet is really a family member

Today my puppy of 10 years, Hannah, died, in my arms at the vet. She has been sick we knew it was coming but didn't realize so soon.

She had a good life. She took many trips with me. She went to Florida a few times, this summer alone, she went to Oklahoma, the lake and we took our trip here. Last year in 2008 she came with me to Florida a couple times. She was always happy when she went on trips with us.

Animals do become a part of your family and it just isn't going to be the same without her. I love(d) her so much, she was my hannah bannah. I just wish we caught that she was sick a year or so ago. When I took her to the vet back home they didn't do near the tests they ran on her at the vet here. Apparently she was anemic, had hypothyroid disease, and also had kidney stones and bladder stones. She was a tough little dog and is going to be greatly missed.

The Power of Yoga

Today I went to the gym. I did 3 classes. The first class was a pretty fun one called Zumba, it's a dance class. The second one was a HARD one, it mixed step aerobics with strength training. The last one was Yoga. So you may think, as I did, ah Yoga a good way to relax after 2 hours of intense cardio/strength training classes. WRONG, the Yoga class was the HARDEST. Maybe it was because it was my last and I had already sweated and used my muscles for 2 hours. I'm not sure. I has been YEARS since I took a yoga class. In fact it was years before Kayla was born!

Although the yoga class was very relaxing. I can see how my muscles need stretched and strengthened. I will be going back, in fact Mon, Wed and Fri. I will still be attending the other classes too, except the Zumba is only Wed. On Mon and Fri it's a spin class.

I ALSO need to work on the relaxing that yoga will help me with. The instructor gave some good tips. She said to do yoga poses during commercials on TV, or after each chapter you read, or after 5-10 min on the computer do a one min pose. I think I will do this. Not only for my mind and body (no I didn't turn hippie lol) but so I don't LOOK like the rookie when I go back to class :)

Another bit of advise she gave us, was to not let anything bother us today. Just let it go.. I was doing good. I cleaned my mat, put it away and put my shoes and socks on (btw I LOVE anything you can do barefoot!!) gathered my belongings, said my goodbyes. Got to my car. THEN as I was backing out, the guy wanting my spot so graciously backed up so I can get out. As I was backing out the HUGE black truck beside me, whose owner happend to be waiting to get into his truck.. Why couldn't he you ask? Because he parked WAY too close to me.. I know it was HIM who parked too close because this is almost 11:30 and I got to the gym about 7:50 and that truck wasn't whom I parked next too. I let it go and backed out didn't hit his truck or HIM and ignored the annoyed look on his face, or maybe it was worry... WELL MISTER DON'T PARK SO CLOSE TO SOMEONE NEXT TIME! Ok so all good right? NO, As I put my car into gear there was a car in front of me with the reverse lights on and a van in front of him coming the other way. I have not clue what this car is doing so I back up and straighten out. His reverse lights are STILL on.. by now the advise I received in class was flying out the window. I was getting upset wondering WHAT in the world can't he just DRIVE? I can't back up any further, by now there are cars behind me. Finally the mini van backs up and I drive around the idiot with the reverse lights on.. as did the 3 cars that had backed up behind ME... Low and behold the idiot was trying to back up because there was a car trying to back out. The car trying to back out was behind him.. This is how lazy and greedy this guy was. HONESTLY what's the deal. I mean you ARE at the GYM would it hurt you to park across the street and walk?

So I guess my calming mindset left the gym when I did... I really need to work on that with my future yoga classes.

Just the way I see it

Ok I am not going to make this long.

I just wanted to throw out there that, I do not understand why our president received the Nobel Peace Prize. Although I do respect the office of the President of the United States.. I am military bred after all. I don't understand this, we are in the middle of 2 wars, is that peace? Not the way I see it.

Another thing is this is no longer "Bush's War".. Our current president has been if office long enough that if he wanted us out of war he would have made that happen by now. After all he IS the Commander In Chief. It is NOW Obama's war. That's just the way I see it.

No matter who is in office the other party is always against them. You would think George Bush was a monkey and Obama is the Anti-chirst. It is just sore loosers throwing a fit. Give it 4 to 8 years and the liberals will be throwing fits again. That's just the way I see it.

If President Obama makes the school day longer, I really hope the kids have PE everyday and get all of their work done in class so they have no homework. It is crazy the amount of homework kids have. When I was in the 3rd grade I didn't have homework, I played kickball most days after school until it was dinner time. Give the kids a break, if you keep them longer, please don't send them home with homework. That's just the way I see it.

I think kids should play constructively and use their imaginations. That is their job. TV unless it is educational is useless for kids... As an adult we make our own choices... that's just the way I see it..

OK I'll end this now.. I said I wasn't going to make it long.. got carried away..

Choices

This is my first blog. Thank you for reading it.
The choice I am trying to make right now is, What church to attend?. Church is important to me and I want to attend the one I am supposed to be at. God led, if you will. I am not a crazy religious person. I do not try to push my religion on anyone. I believe what I believe and if you believe something different that is you. If it is way off key or you are a non-believer, I will pray for you. I won't push my religion down your throat. That being said, it is important to me to find a church where I feel at home.

I have been church shopping. I know what I want. I want a contemporary service at a Baptist church. I like the contemporary service, because you can wear jeans if you want or a dress. They sing the more contemporary music. I don't have anything against traditional hymn's, I just prefer the more updated stuff. I also like the newer contemporary music, since I listen to K-LOVE most of the time and I hear the music on there. I also have to agree with the messages. I believe the Bible and that is the only book I refer too when it comes to my religion. I want sermons that I can relate too, that are taught out of the Bible. This is why I am staying with the Baptist Church.

I know we can't go into a church and be welcomed like family, but I would like people to speak and introduce themselves, not just stare with the look that says "new people, who are they?" I go to church to worship and grow my faith. Too many times church turns into a fashion and popularity contest. I am not into all of that. I don't care what others are wearing or how popular they are. The truth is in their hearts and I believe when you meet someone in church you can tell are they here because they want to be, and they love the Lord, or are they there because it's Sunday and it's the right thing to do. These people go to church because they feel they are better than other people that do not go to church, in my opinion they may as well stay at home!

I am sure I will receive a sign when we are sitting in the pews at the church that we can thrive at, that we can grow and use our spiritual gift at. In the end a church is just a building with 4 walls, it is the PEOPLE that make it what it is.


*UPDATE*

I met a lady at the gym today. She was super excited about her new church. She was telling another lady about it.. I asked her about it and I think I will visit this Sunday. God puts you where you need to be. I think this church is just what I'm looking for!
here is the link.
www.watersedgechurch.net